incendiary

hey guys, i'm going on a hiatus to better my shit... cuz i realize there's an embarrassing amount of things i need to learn.
'til then!

character revamp 2

first of all, everyone, i am SO SORRY for being MIA again!!!!!
i lost myself to pokemon black and white........... ~___~
I SUCK I KNOW OKAY, OKAY OKAY?!!!!!
my schedule has been way f-ed lately... as evident by me posting this at about 4:30am........

anyway, so... here it is: the final stages of my character revamp project. it's not done yet but i felt like i should post it now rather than later since... other projects are screaming at me for attention!! D: i'll return to this at some point though pwooomise C:

character revamp 1

yeah so remember this car-wreck of a job i did a year ago? well i thought it'd be neat to give it a new go. unfortunately i lost a week due to sickness and stress, which set my production schedule back to the stone ages. blargh.
anyway, the character sheet's supposed to be exploratory and therefore largely unfinished, but you get the general idea. girl on the left has an ugly shirt, which i will fix later. more coming up soon!

audrey

you know that feeling you get when you look at something that you've poured hours into only to realize at the last minute that there are a crapload of things wrong with it but you're too lazy/don't have the skills yet to improve them? yeahhhh.....

trials and tribulations

loooool yeeessss i've been playing the 2nd installment of phoenix wright :DDDDD the game's been tremendously enjoyable so far (i just finished the 2nd turn-about). haha, it's really hard to tear myself away from it and actually do work but... i know i have to. *sigh* anyway, i don't know what it is with me and unfinished paintings but i just... find... it... so.... hard... to carry things to completion -__- basically, if i don't end up finishing something in one sitting then it's completely hopeless to pick up the next time. wtf's wrong with me.
i mean, other than the fact that i clearly need to PRACTICE MOAR!!!

whawha

wow yeah, i actually painted a guy for once :D
it was preeetty fun. i'm still stumbling in the dark a lot trying to get the right values down without ragequiting photoshop.... (also i'm not sure why but the image looks wayyy more contrasty here than the original @_@;;)
june is almost here!! i've been eagerly anticipating maroon 5 and rocket summer's new albums. that and abraham lincoln the vampire hunter is coming out too! yay!

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sorry for the wait. all sorts of personal crap got fucked up in the past couple of months... now that i'm finally back to the drawing board, i realize that there's truckloads of things i need to work on @_@ i'll promise to keep posting as long as you promise not to laugh. deal?

reverie (fin)

i.... don't even want to go into how shamefully long this took to complete. i made so many noob mistakes when i first started painting this over a year ago that when i picked it back up again, it took me twice as long to make all the corrections. uggggghhhhhh. wtf was i thinking?

anyway, trying to put together a new portfolio right now, busybusy!

warm up

just a quick exercise before i start working seriously.

ref: http://larafairie-stock.deviantart.com/

what i give

is yours to keep.

consistently inconsistent

concept fail

some character concepts i did for someone @ mass media. i would've done a much better job if i had more time.

hey, how's it going?
good
and how are you?
good
often do you wonder how much that isn't true?
will you help me out if you can?
i'll take you as you are, please take me as i am

this was my final final project for life drawing.

it's been a really rough senior year... during the few weeks prior to my graduation i:

-paid a visit to the emergency room

-hung out with my best friend one last time before she flew half way across the globe to pursue her dreams

-moved in with my boyfriend

by the end of it all i was just so exhausted both mentally and physically. worst of all, my spirit was completely drained. it's the worst burn out i've experienced in a long, long time and i was in no way prepared for the extent of its backlash.

for the majority of the past month i've been stuck in a depressive rut. my motivation was dwelling in the negatives and i just didn't see any reason for doing what i loved any more. i turned off my phone, quit facebook and didn't check my emails. in my mind i knew very clearly that something was wrong but i just couldn't summon up the strength to confront the fear and guilt. so i kept stalling for time.

last friday my boyfriend left to go on a family vacation overseas. i'm suddenly on my own again for the first time in 8 months. the loneliness is overwhelming sometimes but it also gives me room to reflect. and bit by bit i've learned to shed light on the monster that's been lurking in the dark corners of my mind. i will find a way to tame it.

why

i know... i haven't updated this thing in eons. lately i've been devoting almost every waking moment to finishing up my thesis film so i have no time to work on anything else -_-

i did, however, sign up for life drawing (yes again) in order to keep my sanity in tact. our instructor is the most cryptic woman ever when she's giving critiques, which is both hilarious and tragic. for the past 2 weeks she's been getting us to focus on the torso section. here's a 5 minuter:



30 min study:


5 min (diff model):


and a bunch of 2 min quickies:


i've been trying really hard to get away from line drawing & incorporate a more dimensional feel in my drawings. let's see how far i get by the semester.

shy

a quick doodle of shyori from my project stray

just a feeling

i have no time for fear
or people in my ear
head down and running so fast
try not to dwell on the past

what day is it?

and in what month?
this clock never seemed so alive
i can't keep up and i can't back down
i've been losing so much time

haley

let me down easy

mmmhmmm

yup, repeating life drawing for a 3rd time this semester. if it were up to me, i would've booked both sessions back to back but my schedule's already pushing the credit limit...





i'm getting so rusty at this. gotta practice more!